21. deathOne, once in a lifetime,
might look at the sky
and would cease and would surface
with questions of why
Throw aside independence
and choose to be free
In shattered illusion
begin slowly to breathe
20. desecrateSometimes I wish
I could just stand on the little knob in the centre
of the crowbars of time, and watch them spinning devastatingly over the clockface of the earth
and knocking everybody flat
someone who'd been peacefully sprawled on his back the entire time
watching, like me
the dizzying clouds go by
and we'd rise up above the spinning hands
we'd desecrate our toxic state of solitary solace.
19. addiction"I can't bloody well believe it! I studied for over an hour for that test, AND I've been paying attention all term, and I looked at that paper and couldn't understand WHAT it was on about!"
Emil. "Don't worry, you'll be fine. Physics is one of those subjects where you just have to be there and it'll eventually click into place."
"That's all very well for you to say, but I can't exactly rely on that mentality in the middle of grade eleven, now can I?"
"You'll be fine! relax!"
"I can't. I hate it here. I don't understand WHY the hell they jumped me a grade if I'm just so bloody STUPID."
"Like, HONESTLY, I come here every day and all this establishment does is wave little numbers under my nose to indicate how cripplingly STUPID I am! Sad thing is, up until now, I actually thought I had a glimmering hope in life, but apparently not so, even if for once I did actually pay attention and revise enough to parrot it all back out again!"
"But you really aren't-"
"I'm going to the h
18. impulseThe music plays constantly, albeit drowned out somewhat by the hum of six billion-odd people in the room, with more arriving all the time. It is a tragic and motley-looking crowd, and there are millions and millions of people who are crippled, disfigured, mentally challenged: disabled in some way, and in the poor lighting of the room it is impossible to tell who was born in their condition, who has been maimed and who has the potential to overcome their disadvantage completely.
The room is practically all dance floor, although most of the people are turning it into standing-around-at-the-edges floor, some even walking dementedly in little circles, burrowing downward spiral staircases into the ground.
More people still are simply gawping at the cripples (some of which are sitting in feeble government-funded wheelchairs or leaning against makeshift crutches, whilst most curable cases go untreated), some able-bodied purposefully tripping over them and crippling themselves.
A cluster of co
17. white noiseI've never really seen white noise as white.
To me, it's always been black and grey and riddled with poisonous pockmarks
But I will admit that there is an ironic purity to savor
within the scrape of misdirected radio waves and the scream of broken components
that blanks everything else right out
15. skinnySo tonight was the night my parents came to see the play
And I've been kind of dreading this night, because I'm just so scared that they're gonna see all the other girls getting all the solos while I'm shoved to the back of the stage and turn around and say:
"Well Michelle, they actually are very much more talented than you."
That's something I've been struggling to deal with all along, though I don't really know whether I should be struggling to accept it or struggling not to believe it, because frankly it is true, they are more talented than me, technically, but they don't really seem to know what it all means.
After the play we go home and I mention that now they can see why I didn't get many solos, the other girls were better than me
And my Dad starts laughing, and there's this pause while I'm kind of waiting for my mom to try and mask the fact that she agrees with me and my dad to put up the defensive parent act, because obviously nobody could piss more glitter than his daughter
14. wasteOnce upon a time,
there was a wealthy young man
who asked a well-bred young lady
for her wealthy young hand
Well-furnished, comfortable home,
they had no dreams of their own
They would produce a dreaming child
Ladies and gentlemen, we are proud to present, from our very own shores, the marvelously talented...
Feet placed so perfectly
Such a pretty face we've never seen:
The justly awarded Theatre Queen!
Oh! Such accuracy,
such poise could never be
without our Genevieve!
Genevieve will play the piano, dance and sing
Genevieve will fly through every golden ring
So sit down, chum, and have a cigar
Watch our baby become a star
Such reflective eyes I've never seen
Such a pretty little puppet queen
If you only knew what it really means
Do tell me, Genevieve,
Those lines you spin right there
Do they lead anywhere
Is there a purpose there?
How I'd dearly love to cut your strings
if you only had a working mi